I am reading about madness and poetry – so unsurprisingly, I’m reading John Clare
John Clare
The miracle is
Not that you wrote poetry
Although
That is miraculous enough
The miracle is
That you learnt to read at all
And having got your letters
You held onto them
Hard
Not content with just the bible
The almanac
And maybe
The peddler’s lurid tale of hangings far way
Audacious enough to believe that
The farm hand from the midlands
Could shape with hands
That bear the marks of manual labour
When getting up at first light meant just that
When men and horses and carts
Moved and shaped the landscape
You
Moved and shaped your poems
And when
Wheels slipped in mud
And cold and wet and grey
Seeped into your bones
Your mind was elsewhere
While your body did the work
You moved and shaped the landscape of language
And I find I’m thinking of you
As I crawl on my hands and knees
Under a kitchen table
Where the crumbs of three
Or four days breakfasts lie
Because
The cleaner’s coming on Tuesday
And my hands bear the marks of years of manual labour too
Fingers twisting in new shapes
Arthritic architecture
Broken nails
Fingerprints burnt off by bleach
But
Like you
While my body bends in the routine of repetition
My mind is free
Daring enough to hold onto language
While my landscape of skirting boards
And grimy bathrooms
And kitchen sinks
Still blocked with two day old porridge
Isn’t a lovely as yours
John Clare
But
Like you
I am holding on
Holding onto language
Holding onto beauty
Holding onto my belief
In self.
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